Hmm... bored. Last night I decided not to go online and I read. Go me.

Youth Challenge has been a good time. I wish I would have signed up to do more this summer.

I don't really feel like posting!

And I had visitors last night! Dammit! When it rains it pours I suppose... although, I'm not so sure last night counted as raining.

I actually had a good time at work though. Surprising shit eh?

check these pics out if you're bored. These are from that leadership thing I went to for a weekend. Find the toga one, that's a keeper.

Life is boring. I seriously need to not have to work and be boring all the time. I put myself to sleep with boredom.

Hehe.

Stephanie gave me a copy of the video for the seniors from barnstormers. I just watched it twice. I think I forgot to be emotional about everyone actually being gone.. because I'm in severe denial. It hasn't hit my emotional self.

The video is really good.

I'm going to be so sad. I'm already sad. It was all so much fun. Where has it gone?

I'm feeling slightly disowned lately. Hello my distant friends. Yet I feel like dying so, such is life.

Hopefully sleep is the remedy in my near future. Visit me at work tomorrow or Saturday night. It's not really that exciting there but it's nice to see some familiar faces for a couple minutes.

Goodnight.

Ahh, the neglect of Mr. Blog. Aww yeah. The epitomy of hypocritical: getting mad cause no one updated recently yet having neglected my own for a few days.

Last night I had some good quality fun with Anni.

I have today off and I feel the amount of nothingness that will be done already. We're doing some good time fundraising today however... that's a plus and a half. Or something.

If I'm supposed to be 16 only once and I'm supposed to be living it up, what's my problem? I'm stuck in loserville I suppose. But the thing is I don't really care to do all that much when it comes down to it. Do all that much as in crazy, bending the rules shit... you know. Haha. I'm having a good shitty entry right now aren't I?

Sweeet stuff. Maybe I'll actually see some of my friends tonight. Or not. Either way.

You know what's fun? Sitting at the computer with sunglasses on. It's actually quite beneficial when your eyes hurt really bad. I'm having yet another day of feeling crappy. Good times really.

I love the fact that I've become illiterate and brainless this past month or so. And I can't sleep. Ick.

Well I'm off to waste some more time doing something stupid.

Adios muchachos..

Ah, day four of little social contact commences. Hello world.

I wake up feeling really shitty lately. Like not rested and very allergic to life. Not good. I shouldn't even be up right now because I couldn't get to sleep last night until 2 and I woke up this morning at 8. I'm retarded.

There are currently four 14 year old boys lying on my floor... at least they're not awake.

And this week I have free time again. Hooray. Or something... it's not like I have anything useful to fill it with.

Oh, I'm pulling out the whine all over this shit. Sorry everyone. A whiney girl is less than attractive to even merely befriend. Thus I will stop.

Oh, I felt like I had some quality Dave-like time with my computer last night... oh, let's say a good 5 or 6 hours playing SIMS. Go me.

And I will work tonight from 4 to 9ish probably. Goodtimes.

My summer has felt like a big waste of space... much like me. (no more whine)

THE END. (see I ended it)

I'm starting to realize that no one really invites me anywhere. Not fun.

Another day of nothing to do and no one to do it with. Hooray!

I am tired. Oh so very tired.

Work on Saturday wipes me out like no other... and for some reason my allergies aren't being helpful lately. My favorite part of the day would have to be picking up my paycheck with a cup of superman icecream in one hand and a handful of freshly chopped strawberries in the other on my way out. Woo! That of course comes a close second to learning a bit of catering and helping out in the peaceful land of pretty napkins and table settings. Hilarious middle-aged men are my superiors, that is Dennis and Len. I am frightened most days of Ken but thats another thing to work on. Oo! I had blueberry pancakes too! Yum! So that's the exciting work recap.

There are many problems with spending an entire day doing nothing but work. One is that my blog is majorly retarded. Another is I feel no desire to do anything but sleep and take drugs. Yet another is I feel like a big loser.

I most definitely need to discover something I love to do as far as a career goes...

Oh, and I did read some more of Brighton Rock and I'm actually enjoying it now. I just need some Meredith encouragement and then my brain is all like oh yeah, well if cool Meredith likes the book you should too. Heh heh heh.

Yes, most definitely need the day off I have tomorrow... and much sleep.

So tonight was the big performance of our little musical for VBS. Csilla and Anni came in support, yay. My week of hell is now over... horray! Actually, tomorrow's pretty much hell too... work and then babysitting. Icky. Oh well.

Today I got my interview on with Mrs. Moser at my place of employment. It was quite strange... but yeah, that's really all I have to say about that.

I had some good times with Meredith though.. whoo.. PURPLE! HAH! SUCK IT. I'm such a bastard winner. Oh baby. Nananabooboo.

I have decided that I need to be more worldly and aware. I need to read something quick.. and it's not going to Brighton Rock. I just can read it right now. I need something good. Heh.

I love how I have zero life on a Friday night. Go me. I'm off to plan some Mamma Mia. And play some Sims. Woo.

I decided to do a little research to see when I first started this blog, and I discovered that my one year anniversary was 9 days ago. JULY 9, 2001 I started a blog and posted 9 TIMES. (bows head in shame) 9 TIMES! AH! So, anyway, happy anniversary to me I suppose. There's that self obsession again. Haha.

Okay I am sending out a plea... to all of you that want to be supportive and do me a huge favor. I really want to have an audience when the kids I've been teaching at Vacation Bible School perform tomorrow night. That's FRIDAY, JULY 19 at 7:30pm. They will be performing this quasi musical about God and stuff... it's not fantastic but it's cute. We will chill afterwards and hang out.... please come. My church is Our Savior's Rocky River Lutheran Church. It's on Hilliard across the street from the big green Unitarian church. Please come. Bring your friends. Haha.

Yeah so, work is slightly pissing me off. But I guess things are looking up since people are getting fired. And, Kim came to visit me too... even though I had been sent home already.. but yeah whatever about that. It was a good time to visit with her at least. And I had a tuna melt. Those are goodtimes let me tell you.

hmmm... oh, I had the strangest dream last night about John Dewees giving me a foot massage on a flaming gameshow set. Crazy shit.

I want to see Mamma Mia! and I want to go to the Goo Goo Dolls/Third Eye Blind/Vanessa Carlton concert. These things are going to happen in my life, and I would enjoy your participation. Contact me for more info if you're interested.

Woo, this entry is a big, long request. Kill it.

So I was totally complaining about not seeing enough people more frequently... and then I went to Malley's last night.

Hello everyone and their mom... (that's literal for Jake and Emily). Anywho, I got to see so many people I felt like I was going to burst from all the friends. WAY FUN.

I went there with Jana and Erin. I feel bad because I kind of like ditched them... I hope they weren't pissed off about it. So I saw Kiera and Melissa and then Dave and Kim and Csilla and Nick.... wow, crazy time. Anyway, I ended up leaving with Ned, Marge, Beth, and Bryan. We had the strangest conversations at the Theobald's. Bridgit and Mary were there too. Oh man, good times. The topics of conversation stretched my little dead summer brain to a new height.

Often, I fade into listening mode and don't say anything. That was me yesterday I believe. And then, my stupid allergies came out to play. OH well I suppose. I got little sleep last night and woke up early to go to a meeting. YAY.

Hopefully I'll be fundraising today... sigh.

So I just wrote this long pretty pessimistic post and I lost it. Karma or something, eh?

Welp, Vacation Bible School isn't really worth my time this week, yet it will absorb my Monday-Friday 5 to 8:30. WOOHOO. I feel so out of the loop again... I don't know what my deal is. I have a ridiculous amount of people I would like to spend time with, and these people somehow avoid me. Oh I have cooties alright.

Church politics piss me off so much. Church and Politics should not be combined at all. But alas, people corrupt most things... so why not church. This is why I don't appreciate going anymore. Or maybe it's just the laziness. Oh well.

One of my bad karma inducing thoughts involved the blog circuit. In some of these things, it becomes quite obvious to me that people are worried about being enough of something. Entertaining enough, depressed enough, pitiful enough, witty enough, intelligent enough... it's sometimes overwhelmingly self absorbed. At many moments I find my blogging prospect an abstract form of being self obsessed. But I still do it. And I love it.

And I don't want to be one of those people who starts every entry with "since I haven't posted in two months I thought I'd write a few sentences... oh I guess I'm done now, see you next year blogger".

Moving on, wine me, dine me, sign me, fine me, pine me, line me, tine me, vine me, mine me, and of course, sixty-nine me.

Or better yet, call me, and take me out sometime.

In case you miss me a great deal, I thought I'd let you know why I'm MIA as far as computer action goes. My computer is under the weather and getting some surgery done. Alas, my dear friend is in need of some time off from our friendship... and I'm screwed and lonely. Definitely not screwed literally but that's another woe to whine about. Anyway, I'm thoroughly internet deprived and blogworld clueless. So, if you think I'm gonna be online to talk to or whatever... I won't be. Good stuff, eh? I'm depressed about it. Sigh. Another thing that sucks about my current situation.

Many a moment lately I have been hoping for an exciting moment of lust or some such nonsense. I have a lacking amount of man in my life as of now. Don't you even dare comment about BDR either. I HATE YOU ALL.

And I can't read your stupid comments til like Thursday anyway.

I still need some meat. Think outside the box and call me. Hah. And I hate phone calls too... ah, woe is me. Woe woe woe.

I feel also detached from many people I liked to spend time with during thid year... that would be nice too if those who brightened my days.

You know something? The more I fall into a less exciting, not so fun life, the more I swear. Dirty mouth... hmph... what can be done?

From the way I'm speaking, who would think that I'm sitting with a bunch of people at Amy's grad party.

HEY who called me at work today? Who called me twice at home today? Call me again and let me know!

Welll.... goodbye forever it seems. Entertain me sweethearts.