I saw Ben Folds at Severence Hall, it was excellent. I was mesmorized... truly. That man makes a lot of music entirely on his own... it's insane. So that was good stuff.


I'm just going... I don't really know what to say about anything that has happened or will happen or has yet to happen or is bound to happen or should happen... I'm just going.

I sleep a lot. I'm tired a lot. I try to be comfortable where I am at all times, but I'm really finding that difficult over the past few days. I hate that I'm not having an enjoyable time at moments that I SHOULD be having one. I don't really know what's wrong with me... or my situations...

I don't want to feel like this about people I love, or have loved in the recent past... I want to stop missing the people I haven't seen in forever... and I want to stop hating the time I have with those I know I will miss sometime soon...

Ah, I must shut up now.

Much love.

Shall we post? dun dun dun...

The days left at Lakewood High are dwindling down... and boy is it great. I can't wait for Spring Break first and foremost though, after that, it will be all good. I will have more money, and that's a relief. And I will have the much needed free time to do as I please, for a little while at least.

I feel good at this very moment because I got off my lazy ass and enjoyed the weather... did a bit of a walk-run-walk type deal down to Lakewood Park and back... walked along the lake and such. I got to see all the pretty sunset and all the romantic couples... I avoided feeling too lonely though. GO me. Sigh. What do I want? I want this.. but I want more of it... sometimes I do... sometimes I worry... sometimes... I think too much about it. That's what I need to stop doing. It will be alright.

I got to direct all by myself today. It was actually pretty nice, although I hate the song and I hate making the cast do things they hate doing because I understand how it is... and I have such conflict with people joking around and me having to be focused and keep the work going, when I would just as soon be joking around with them. I did feel like people respected me a little bit at least, and I had a lot of people watching my back, so it was nice. And I had two very nice boys compliment me this evening... yay for them. I guess there was a third boy, but he didn't think of it all on his own... he's a jerk really, I don't know why I talk to him. ;) But thanks to Taylor and Chris for the love.

I managed to get some seemingly correct answers on my Physics quizz. I am amazed at my lack of homework completion and being able to match answers with the likes of Michelle and Stacey. I'm sure it won't be the greatest quizz ever, but they never are.

Tomorrow is Ben Folds. Thursday is first night of break, and Mongolian Barbeque. Friday is first day off and Liz's rockin' party... and this weekend is just me and my brother at home, and a good portion of time at work! Yes! So much to look forward to. I'm also looking forward to some quality hanging out time with E.O. So she hopes at least... SPRING BREAK APPROACHES! YES!

Sigh, I wish I wasn't so confusing to people... I suppose they love me enough despite it... but that whole insecurity thing finds me a bit concerned at the moment. But, alas, moody me can't do much about it. Don't think about it.

Take me there... I wanna go there...

So, here we are again, I'll just list random crap that's happened or going on with me...

1. Key Club Convention: I went there Fri-Sat-Sun last weekend. It wasn't as bad as it could have been, which actually means that I had a goood time.. due to my sad prospects for the weekend. Highlights include: the new Spirit Rally on Friday night, Steak-n-Shake, the excellent service at "HAMBURGERS" late at night, talking in bed about everything til too late, seeing Nick on stage etc, Scott Greenberg (the speaker), going out to O'Shaugnessy's (excellent restaurant), taking naps!, getting pretty for Banquet/Ball, hot guitar boy that didn't win :(, getting to escort Nick and slow dance fun with him, they pronounced my name correctly!!!, the Alyward's awesome suite, knowing all the ghetto songs at the ball, strange eggs and breakfast mashed potatoes... :)

2. Lynnette's Recital: I went to that Sunday night. I'm a misbehaved young lady and I need to get myself in check. MAMMA MIA! I'm glad I'm not at Beck... and I love my singing peeps... ;) Oh, and my mom says schizophrenia runs in the family and she hopes I never start drinking.

3. School: sucks.

4. Paid: for bunches of stuff at school, yearbook, senior crap etc.... loads off my back. But still much more money must be spent, hooray!

5. Prom: I got my dress on Tuesday! Yay! It's fuscia... yeah I know, it's pretty though... I'm going with Ned, to kill all the suspense... or lack there of. Hopefully everything else will go smoothly. Ugh.

6. Stress Relief Day: I went on that fieldtrip to a rockin' hotel to learn how to de-stress in life. Yoga is so freaking cool! I want to take classes from Bhumi... she's so sweet. I had an excellent day, complete with Caribou before rehearsal.

7. Break: I need a break. I take a break every single day, but I need an official one. Actually, I need to catch up and then have a break. But I want the catching up to feel like a break. Who's got the power?

8. Work: Yay! My place of employment opens up again THIS WEEKEND. I'm so pumped... summer here I come, money, icecream, ahh the good life. Haha. Yeah it's sad. I just really want to be doing something that I feel good about, in only that way that work can make you feel. Yeah I'm crazy. I like my job.

9. Clubs and such: It's really funny cause I struggle to place my feelings in terms of Barnstormers, the show, Key Club... etc. They just are... at this moment, it's how it is I guess.

Nine's a good number. My favorite in fact.

Comment inspiration: What's one song that you think fits me? (Inspired by Chelsea's "Short Skirt, Long Jacket" by Cake)

Weekend at Key Club Convention in Columbus...

I'll miss you all muchly.... love to all.