From 1am:

So remember when I used to post? Those were the days...

I've had a whirlwind break. Quite bountiful amounts of fun and excitement
and strange happenings. Hell yeah.

When I returned from Buffalo, I had a wonderful day of nothing and then I
went out with Heather, Ned, Matt Bakaric, and Dave Johnson. I thoroughly
ditched them at Caribou... having a grrreat conversation with Michelle and
Hannah(!) who happened to be there. But then! We went to see the most
entertaining movie I've seen in a while, Catch Me If You Can. I highly
recommend it. Afterwards, "Do you guys ACTUALLY want to go to My
Friends?" So we went there, and I saw my boss. Yay.

Today, was way fun too... I slept til 1! Yeah! Had some Michelle fun, mass
Anni and Duna family fun, and got home at the early hour of 10pm. For sure!
I'm a good girl!

I'm so strange right now... it's ridiculous.

All is well methinks. Very good.

Goodbye 2002, hello graduation year. Crazy.

So, I'm in BUFFALO.

I missed everyone leaving... and the party and all that jazz... for what? I sat around last night doing nothing. OH welll... Life goes on :)

I had a driving lesson today. That was probably a good idea to have, and I did advance... less scared I suppose.

I got a REAL email today. YOU SHOULD SEND ME REAL EMAIL. It's the best!

How come no one posted about the party? I'm looking for details... come on yo.

So yeah. That's all.

I'm an ass!

Hey, I thought I'd post... ugh. Makes me mad that I used to be a loyal blogger... and now-a-days I suck at it. Not to say I didn't suck at it before, but that's besides the point. It used to flow... I used to be the type making mental blogging notes. My brain is on the fizzle... fo shizzle... hehe. See? It's like I've been smoking lots and lots and the cells are just gone. I'm braindead. I can't think of anything, I can't figure anything out, I can't work up the brainpower to try to work on things I know I can figure out... UGH.

So I just need a break... a step back of some sort. I'm confused again, regardless of how not confused I'm supposed to be, I'm still confused. If that makes sense... hah. Who cares if I make an ounce of sense? Who cares period?! I don't.

Why don't I want it when I have it? Or can have it? Why isn't there the one man who I can't talk myself out of? Why can I do that, what part of my surreal story can't I comprehend?!

AHHHH!!!

Christmas was way fun. Merry merry to all... I hope you had a wonderful time. I got some good stuff, which I enjoyed greatly. Good family fun.

I'm off to Buffalo once more, and I'll miss all of these Florida kids going off.. but yeah. I'm excited to see my family and stuff.

When do I get to relax? OH yeah, that's right, I'm doing that now... mmmhmm...

I love you all.

aubinlkwd (8:33 PM): im sorry your love life is just so humorous

I LOVE SCHOOL

There, I've admitted my undying devotion to it, and I can't wait until I save up enough money to buy it a NICE BIG ENGAGEMENT RING.

Sigh, I'm in loooove...

It has been an eventful and fun filled weekend (thankfully!).

Good times at the Barnstormer's "Winter Meeting" although I fell asleep because Fiddler was so bad. Games were fun... yeah... you know. woooo.

Saturday was a less than spectacular DAY due to the Christmas Pagaent rehearsal that was mighty disappointing at first, and then I came home with no energy and only desire to sleeeep.

Next stop, caroling with Key Club. Good times with Nick. I'm really really glad I went, if only for the purpose of talking to Nick... cause that was good stuff. We had some nice conversations with Diana about Playgirl and the 3 freshman that came along as well. Yummy cookies too.

From there, I ended up at Burger King, and then the Langenhop's... very surreal... the daughters were knitting and crocheting as the family played a game of Trivial Pursuit. Family friends were there too, woo boy, they were funny. Okay, UNDERWATER HOCKEY!?!?! And, Alison found out the name for the syndrome she has... very interesting stuff.

Today, I went to church with Jill, and that was a rip roarin good time. Did you know that in order to be a good person you must say "I help out at church and I'm nice to my friends" I learned so much about the people in that youth group... man alive. GO Lutheran West! YAY! (note sarcasm)

Let's GOOOOOOOO shopping! YEAH! I got some Christmas shopping done today... a full 5 hours of fun in the mall, Target, Marcs, Family Toy Warehouse. And I'm not near finished! YEAH. At least I got SOME stuff out of the way.

And here we are, right now, and I have not done any of my homework... but the night is young, plenty of procrastination time left!

Hold me, console me.

When tears start to stream down my face for no socially accepted reason, what do I do?

I'm lost in my cesspool of supposed knowledge, emotion and thought...

What do I want? I want to be content, and at this moment I AM DISCONTENTED.

I hope tomorrow goes well. I hope things are different. In the least. Sweep me away... oh beautiful one. I don't care who you are, I just need you.

Once you give all you can, it's their turn. I'm trying to hold onto this. Hell, I even said so, but the outcome isn't so great... and that's expected too, I suppose. I want fun! I want some! Gimme gimme... figgy puddddding! haha.

I have a feeling I'm going to have a nice cry in the near future... it's boiling inside. Just wait until the floodgates are opened. Hopefully I'm not alone... or hopefully I am...depending.

I hope I have some fun this weekend. I could use it. I need to do mad shopping. Ridiculous amounts in fact.

I want to see all of the stupid people that go to these college type things... siiigh.. so much so much so much.

There's no such thing as the real world, just a lie you've got to rise above.

Ah, life is crazy.

This week has been somewhat hellish, I had to deal with make up work and all that annoying stuff. I love missing school! Being back definitely made me wish I was still gone... but such is life.

Secret Santa started this week, exciting. And... it was Elves week too! It was fun to be an elf. Perks of being a senior. Or SOMETHING.

I did my public statement yesterday. It was pretty emotional. I don't know... I kind of feel like I didn't do that great of a job, but I'm glad I talked about what I did. It's hard to talk about it, and so it was nice to have an outlet. I was kind of disappointed in some of my class, but such is life.

My boss, Dennis called and he asked me to work tonight. So, of course I'm working. I'm working a party from 3pm to around 2am. I am crazy. Absolutely nuts.

This morning's plans are Bonne Bell sale and Christmas Pageant rehearsal. Last night I stayed home and babysat and wrote the stupid script for the pageant. Why do I do these things? I'm stressed enough as it is, so on saturday I decide to work and volunteer. Crazy. And I'll be exhausted on Sunday now... so that's a plus.

I can't wait til break. I can't wait til I actually see everyone since I missed most everyone over Thanksgiving. I'm tired already... sigh.

Smile, you're on the radio.