Happy happy to Karrie and Jana....

I'm sorry I'm such an inconsiderate bitch... I wish I was as good at celebrating the birthdays of those I love as you are... you guys are too good to me. I love you bunches.

And I randomly decide to take a test:


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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AHH!!!!

I'm so freaking stressed.... mentally, physically, academically... emotionally... what the hell. I need some release and I also need everything to be done! I can't do it! How can I get everything together... how can I pull myself together. Why must I do this? All the fucking time... I'm trapped.

I want to SCREAMMMMMMMMM!!!

Save me from this wretched unyielding world of nothing I want to do, nothing I feel I can achieve.

Needless, to say i'm having a hard time.

I want to do what I enjoy, not what I have to. Or I want to at least have the energy to do the things I have to... why must I have no passion?

I keep imagining myself drowning... I feel it so much. Slowly, I'm slipping away as more and more commitments and things to do fill me up and choke my being.

I want to have fun. I try to have fun. I get home at night, tired, not willing to do the work I've been doing all day, relentlessly. And I must do more... keep going... finish it all... make it through...

I must breathe.

You are looking and feeling gorgeous today, dear Libra, and don't think that people don't notice! You are in a romantic frame of mind, and are quite receptive to any overtures made by others today. This is great news if you are single and unattached, not so great news if you are already in a committed relationship. Enjoy the attention, whatever your situation. Just be sure to behave appropriately.

That was my horoscope for yesterday.... behave appropriately? what? But I'm a whore!!! Hooray!

So yeah, I had a fun time at homecoming. I got on some hot guys... heheheh. Stag=for me.

Actually, callbacks were ALL of the guys, and a few of the girls. Believe it or not Dave... Callbacks definitely vary from show to show. :)

Anyhow, the bittersweet cast list went up today. It was very agitating in many aspects. Alas, it will work out. I have decided that positivity is the necessity with this show. Peter, Stephanie and I just need to put our best foot forward and try to make it fun. Peter and I get to be another team. This time the team of screenwriters the play is based on, but a team nonetheless. No making out though. Damn.

My first lead... scary shit.

In other news... I'm tired and I haven't done half my homework. I think I'll go to bed.

I most definitely should be doing my homework now instead of this. I should do a lot of things...

Anyhow, callbacks were today. No fun. I'm the most experienced call-back-ee in the school. No joke!

Here's what I love, I sneeze every single period in school a million times and it's extremely annoying and then I stop the MOMENT I get out of my 9th period class. Hell, I feel grrrreat now. I'm allergic to class.

I'm kind of sucking it up in classes lately. Maybe it was just my day... but geez. I'm worried about my progress report. That's really all I need, another thing for my dad to get mad at me about. I'm sure he'll say I need to work on the way I'm dealing with everything. Ugh. So many stupid pressures.

Nick apologized today... so that was nice. I was feeling pretty shitty about all that I had heard, so I'm way glad it wasn't true. Things are good again.

I'm actually friends with Phil lately. It's the wierdest thing... it's nice, but strange. Love those AP classes. I suck in them, but at least I have friends. Bah.

Ever since I turned 17....

Tomorrow can't be over soon enough. Geez.