After two failed attempts at posting, I will try once more. Be excited. Ah, that's so wonderful to refrain from using an exclamation point although "excite" is probably the reason an exclamation point exists. I've come to accept the fact that my primary reason for using an exclaimation point is to address a sarcastic undertone that comes along with my less than cheery statement. Alas, I will move on from these exclaiming thoughts...

I most definitely need to post more often. It's a problem of neglect I'm experiencing, and my cracked out computer doesn't help things. Sigh.

I saw Lilo and Stitch (I might as well just start with Tuesday night). It was like marshmallow gooey-ness with out all the sticky when you're done enjoying it. A nugget of delight in an otherwise drab day. Good stuff.

Bridgit should quit her job at Gold Coast Cafe. No good man, no good.

Wednesday I had a great time at work, it was quite enjoyable. I appreciate the days I get to work with Ellen, good fun. David is enjoyable as well. I also got some visits from Jeremy, Emily and Allison, tons of fun.

Thursday was pretty dull during the day, and then I went out to eat with Amy and we had some fun at Target and her house. Good times. I came home in time to watch A Beautiful Mind... good movie, very crazy but good.

And this is about the time that my illness kicked in. I went to the doctor on Friday and he told me I have a throat infection and there's really nothing I can do about it except drink pop or soup... (he's a screwy doctor). But alas, I worked, and it was way busy.... and I felt sick. BLAH.

I still feel sick. BLAH AGAIN. hehe.

Saturday began the nightmare of painting our house. Yes, my family is painting our house. And it's really annoying. Priming is the worst, and we did the first half of our house... and finished around 1 ish. I went shopping with my mom and got an outfit and some flip flops and another shirt.

I HATE SHOPPING. Okay, rewind. I hate trying on clothing at certain stores... namely... Dillards. It drives me up the wall for many reasons. One being I'm too fat. Damn. But, I got something to wear and then went to Target which was a much better experience... Target, I love you. After that I went to Jana's Grad Party. I ate way too much there. Tooooo much. I had a fun evening, flitting in and out with Amy and then Chelsea to pick up Csilla. Good times. I ruined Chelsea's hair... I bought some soap... I looked at pictures... got extremely tired... sigh. Pretty full day for me.

Hey! It's today now! hahahaha. I'm so glad I can amuse myself. Yeah. Well, I'm still feeling sick, and I get to work tonight. I have to miss Emily's party. :( That makes me sad.

I pretty excited for the 4th of July and what not. I hope to have some good times... okay? yeahhhhhh.....

Well this way long. Bye now.

ahhh... the wonderful world of waiting for weird images about a quiz's results...


I'm getting there. I don't suck, but I've got a ways to go.

Well hello...

My weekend was a great deal of fun that I didn't really expect. I realize now that it was a breath of fresh air from the seeming small circle I have of people. It was also a way for me to step back and notice those nuances that whoops... every stupid teenager has, and they're pretty damn universal.

It was quite refreshing however, to be at a location somewhat far from home that everyone was open to meeting people and for some reason the size of the group of "rising seniors" made it very easy to associate with everyone. I met some really awesome people. Granted, being the cynic I am, I probably will never see nor talk to any of them again, but it's good to know they're out there.

Girls talk about girlie stuff like hair gel and blow dryers and nail polish when they try to relate at first meeting.

Cereal, candy and comedy sketches cross every barrier imaginable.

It's truly amazing how diverse we are... in ways seen and unseen. And we also have things you wouldn't expect in common.

The picture perfect football player guy really does exist and his name is Dan.

Hey, if any Hiram Leadership people should ever find this... drop me an email or an IM, I don't bite and I'm sure we could find something to talk about. I love you all...

And that would be babble about my leadership deal this past weekend. Good times. I definitely enjoyed wearing a toga and playing hideandseek... not to mention karaoke and some subway. Thank goodness for Charyse and Dave's pop adventure. Mancala rocks the house, Taboo is nice too... oh yeah and all those workshop thingys weren't bad either.

Let's see some Lilo and Stitch please.

OH, I got my first bank account today. Isn't that exciting? Oh yeah.

Later...

Kelly Osbourne is the best. I'm sorry but she's sweet as hell. Papa Don't Preach.

yeah baby.

Well I'm back from everything... and I'm full of many observations and such from the weekend but I'm too lazy to do those now. So, just so y'all know, I'm here.. include me :) hehe.

Love ya.

It's worst when stop posting for so long that it becomes more of a habit to not post... sigh.

So, I have basically decided that everyone needs a little bit of excitement, whether it be whining and making sure someone's caring about you or something on the flip side that's a lot better. Either way, it adds a bit of spice to life. Intense depression and ridiculous bliss are quite similiar in this fashion. They all just add a bit of flavor to an otherwise humdrum life. Alas, I am at neither end of the spectrum at this moment, sooo... I'm pretty damn boring.

My computer screen is fucked. So, who knows what's going to happen in my computer situation in the near future.

I get to "go out of town" Thursday through Sunday this week. Too bad it's not to like somewhere nice and vacationy. It's more like, my grandparent's lakehouse for 1 and a half days and then to Hiram College for some leadership thing. Hmph.

I hate this point of boredom where you're so bored that anything you think to do bores you as well. If that makes sense to you, you get an imaginary gold star. Congrats.

Is it just me or does anyone else find the fact that "The A-Teens" are coming out with a NEW album entitled Pop Til You Drop nauseating?!

Well, I was able to get a few quick fixes for my movie needs. I watched a bit of Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Moonstruck (all of it, good stuff), and a nice Lifetime movie. Oh baby was that good. "Too Young to be a Dad". Quality filmmaking right there, let me tell ya.

Also included in my day of doing nothing productive, I watched a special on the Westside Market. Let's just say it made me want to move in there and marry a butcher... or perhaps the newbie pasta maker dude. Ah, to have a rich heritage. That would be nice. I think that is most definitely one of my desires... one of those unattainable and sort of useless wishes for a different life. And thus, I long to marry a guy with tradition. Heh. Good luck.

It amazes me how many hours are included in a day that I can waste away.

Hello blog. Hello "A".

Yeah. So, today was actually a really enjoyable day. It's one of those not-so-out-of-the-ordinary-but-nice-to-go-through days. And I took the 3 hardest finals today, yet I still enjoyed it. Amazing.

Some not-so-out-of-the-ordinary highlights of my day:

1. I had a crazy dream last night... quite vivid.
2. Jill (plus Mr. Snyder!) picked me up this morning, aww yeah.
3. A good conclusion to the year in English. Big Red drop off woohoo.
4. I got to talk to Liz Goodman
5. Lunch with Anni at Aladdins
6. A conclusion to my random group of fun in math
7. Finished the stupid H lab in chemistry
8. Walked to the store with Eric and Lisa
9. Figured out how to make cards on my computer
10. Found sweet Hanson stickers to put on Mary and Beth's gifts
11. Mary and Beth's Grad Party. "This is so weird... what a weird group of people... everyone's like hey, haven't seen you in 2 years, how bout a hug... how weird" Good conversations though... 4 of my coworkers were there... crazy... I got to talk to some excellent people. Excellent.
12. Driving with Kim
13. The Lavelles... not the basement...hehe... backyard fun. RC is hilarious. Umm, yeah... somebody needs to do something about that one. Ahem. I came to the conclusion that when certain people are around its best not to speak unless spoken to. Yeah.

And now, I'm home. Good day. Thanks everyone who participated. Hah. I'm so corny... or something.

At least I'm being positive.

Later days

I found this incredibly amusing... and yes, I am a big dork.

The Word of the Day for June 7 is:

greasy spoon \GREE-see-SPOON\ (noun)
: a dingy small cheap restaurant

Example sentence:
"Every luncheonette, diner, coffee shop, cafeteria,
greasy-spoon, drugstore counter -- and not a few elegant
restaurants -- serves tuna fish salad." (Nancy and Arthur
Hawkins, _The American Regional Cookbook_)

Did you know?
"Greasy spoon" was first cooked up in the 1920s. In the
early decades of its use, the words in the surrounding context were usually along the lines of "lousy," "wind up eating in," "slinging hash," "the underside of society," "settle for," or "rather starve." And while things haven't changed entirely, a recent wave of nostalgia has elevated the status of greasy spoons. Since the 1970s, the descriptions might contain words like "fabled," "distinction," "beloved," "classic," "an institution," "fondness for," and "comfort food." Now you can consult a "Greasy Spoon Guide" and read up on "Best Greasy Spoons," or lunch at a diner "restored to look like a greasy spoon." Some of these eateries are now even named "The Greasy Spoon."

I'm exhausted and I feel shitty.

I never realized how much doing crap on a not so great day can make a really disgusting part of one's personality shine on through. I don't know what it is but one day every couple of months I do things and things start to build up and emotion is overwhelming.... and I cry. Today was a day.

Geez, I hate my weekend. I hate myself for not being able to control myself today. It was like an out-of-body experience to be so weak.

And the greatest part of all is I had absolutely no good reason to be like this today. I suppose I could come up with a list of over 10 excuses for it... but none of them are anywhere near worthy.

I took the SATs this morning, after being at work way too late for my own good the night before, and I couldn't get my act together and leave the house at the time I had planned on. We had no caffiene in the house... I thought the test started at 8 so my 7:58 departure time was no good. And to make things all better, I forgot the admission ticket as well. So then I look at the envelope from SATs and what do you know it says "arrive between 8 and 8:15". Let's just say that was a nerve wracking start to my day. And I hadn't even taken the SATs yet! WOO!

SATs are fun. Haven't you heard? I'm addicted. I take them every Saturday morning I possibly can! YAY! And next week, oh baby, I have the ACTs.

So after that Stacey and I waited around for a good half hour to go out to eat. Which we eventually did, and that was good.

And then I got home and about 3 hours later had to go to work. Work was not the best. I cut myself. And for some reason I couldn't deal with the blood rushing from my hand... that wouldn't stop. It hurts too. I felt like crying... hell I probably did. So the bleeding kept up for a good part of the night. Not exactly a fun thing to be dealing with. And then I wanted to go home... and I was done with closing the store and cleaning everything... but nooo, I had to help clean the kitchen. I hate feeling like I'm hated... and stupid.. and then I do stuff knowing that it digs the hole deeper. Alas, it was a fun day.

So, to top it all off I ask when I'm working tomorrow and he says 10am. Too bad I tried to plan all of my homework around the possibility of working at 4pm. So he changed the time to 1pm but I still can't fit everything in at that time. Geez... I'm so sick of this day. It needs to end. But I'll get up tomorrow and do hopefully some project, and then go back to work.

Kill me now. Why can't school just be OVER!?!!? AHHH!!!

Goodnight.